Sometimes…I think I do too much thinking. Example: Yesterday through today. I’ve been thinking about life in general and where I’m headed. It’s almost like God’s plan is on the tip of my tongue but as of right now I wouldn’t be able to tell you what He’s got planned.
There’s a lot of possibilities to think about and I’m not set on one thing. I cannot tell you where my heart is because I just don’t know. I’m in such a place right now that I’m completely trusting God to show me where my own heart is! And to be honest, I love it. I love gaining this trust and growing to completely rely on Him for everything my future entails.
Calvin and I have been seeking God together and trusting Him with all that we have and all that we don’t yet have. So far, He’s taking us down the same path which has been completely unplanned on our part. Calvin confessed to me the other night that he doesn’t think I’m in the right major. He gave very valid reasons that confirmed why I wasn’t satisfied with where I was. (in communications) He urged me to look again into a contemporary ministry major. I didn’t want to hear it at first because I knew that the major would not confirm a job after college, but I was again reminded by my best friend that I didn’t have to be concerned about finding a job after college at the moment. All I need(ed) to do is trust God right now and He will provide later. Calvin’s saying of the year, “Sometimes what seems impractical to us, is extremely practical in God’s eyes!”
SO I looked again at the courses and discovered it to be basically Calvin’s major along with something extra I could love and call my own. The major consisted of a chosen ministry concentration and my choice was obvious: Youth and Family.
The description of the major and what I would study and prepare to do has been on my mind lately. It fits with my passion, I just need to decide whether this is a God thing. I need to pray, plan, and prepare! I wouldn’t say I’m completely shocked if this is the field God called me to…in fact, I think the major is just a sliver of what God is calling me to. But don’t ask me what the rest of the calling is. It seems God is choosing to continue my blind walk so that He makes certain I’m following and trusting my Savior 100%!
If I may quote one of my favorites, CS Lewis. “Aim at heaven and you will get earth thrown in. Aim at earth and you get neither.”
So, aim for Gods plan, and He has a way of making it all work.
ahh yes. Now all I really need is for God to reveal what that plan is so that I have some direction on which way to go.
I’m with ya girl! If you had asked me a month and half ago if I thought that I would be living in Thailand in just a few months, I would probably would have told you no!
But it looks as though the Lord has had other plans in mind. These few weeks have such a great(sometimes confusing) time of learing to completely trust Him and be willing to do anything for Him. Even if that means changing the direction that I thought I was supposed to go. I know He will show you what you’re supposed to do.
Keeping you in my prayers!!
I have never known God to show where to put your whole body. He tends to only say where to put your foot. Sometimes, it’s just the toes. Learn to look for and appreciate the small clues. When you are at step 7, don’t strain trying to figure out what step 43 is. Just try to figure out step 8. You will be at step 43 soon enough.